Friday, July 16, 2010

Love is in the square!

Love is in the square! -- taken literally from'love is in the air'
This will be another story based on my dream tonight, hope you enjoy it:

"Okay mom, I will go back soon and I will take care of myself! I love you", so that day I left my house for a week vacation to New York city. I really love New York, and I enjoy times square so much because they are just so lively. Departing from the plane, I was so excited to spend a week in my favorite city in the whole country, and ... hmm I will just go to shop after I arrived there!!

It's new york, baby! I feel great, and bringing all my luggages I walked down through the 5th Avenue and saw lots of nice stores. Prada, Tiffany, and a lot more to shop!! And the result? yea about 10 bags on my hand already, wait a sec! I looked at my watch, and NO!! it's 7p.m already ? So I passed my check in time in the hotel! I tried to go head back  to my hotel and asked if I could still get a room, "sorry mam, I did book a room last week, and now I miss the check in time? Do you still have any room I can check in to??". She checked her computer and.. ,"sorry, we're full for tonight, miss." . OH NO! Where should I stay, the clock hit 11 already and I have no place to stay?? God bless me!

I decided to walk out the hotel and look for another hotel or place I can stay for the rest of the vacation, I dragged my luggages and carried my heavy packages of shopping bags, hoping that I can meet someone I know. Isn't it quite dangerous walking down here with only street lights above you, not much people walking on this road.. Oh no! I need to walk faster! I saw some dangerous looking people kept looking at me, it was so scary that he has scars on his face and now.... HE'S FOLLOWING ME!? I ran and ran, until I saw a kind of small hotel next to my right and I entered it. While he opened the door, I squeezed and hid right behind the receptionist desks where a group of people were checking in. "Please, please! Allow me to come with you guys!", I begged without even see who they were. And luckily they gave me a permission!

Not long until I saw the scary guy walked out, I raised my head.. and I am lucky! I just noticed that that group  was my high school friends. I felt so happy to face that, I saw Charissa, and some other friends I really feel comfortable to be with. So we shared some stories, and there was a man I feel very pleasured to talk with. We were high school friend, but yet we're not a close one. After a while everyone went to sleep, left me and Vince who still strongly alive here. So we chatted the whole night, "Where are you going tomorrow?", he asked me and so I answered "maybe, times square". I know it's not romantic at all, but he asked me out, "sst, you should not say it to others, but do you want to go out to an amusement park?". I felt so.. cool. And so I said," really? but I don't really know you well". He looked disappointed and just went to his bed and sleep. I felt so guilty, but really I've just known him and I don't dare to go out with him.

I decided to go to bed as well, when I also still think around this guilt and feeling that I experienced that night. I think when I talk to him, hmm.. it's like really I felt so happy. I don't know what's this feeling but, anyway! let's go to bed.

It's morning and I decided to go by myself to times square, but go to another hotel before I miss that check in time again. So "Thanks guys, I appreciated the night with you all. Hope you have a great vacation here!". It hurts for me, I actually really want to spend more time with them, especially talking with him. But, I felt so bad to put more burden on them.

Got it! I got the hotel already, just about few blocks behind times square, my favorite place!
I spent my day today on the times square, took several picture, and had a lunch at an Italian restaurant around that area, and felt so.. lonely until. "Oh this girl! You really spend your day alone?", Vince came and sat on the table next to me. I was so shocked that I spit my tea that I just drank. "Hahahahha", he laughed, "You must be really shocked. I just want to play around, because their schedules are really boring!". I cleaned up my clothes and mouth, while smile and we enjoyed our lunch together. Walking through the crowds, I really enjoyed it, but I think.. not for him. I walked straight and he kept on calling me. "Hey! wait for me!! where are you?". Well honestly, I was annoyed, but .. felt so different? I should say.. maybe.. I felt as if it's like a date?
Once he grabbed my hand and pushed me back, "please take care of me here. crowds is not my friend, is it okay?" . And so I nodded and walked together with him all the way.

These things kept on happening for several days, until it was my last day in the city, we became so close together. And I felt as if he's my guy, but how can I expect.. He never say it at all to me. I felt hurt, we are going to go our own way soon enough, but seems like nothing will happen at all. I decided to go by myself on my last day, it was empty, so empty compared to the other day. I decided to walk to the amusement park, Victoria Garden.. He told me that out of new york's business and crowds, you still have a quite fun place to entertain you, the park. I played by myself, and cried quite a bit, I did not know that his vacation I will meet someone I can fall in love with, and once with someone who can cause me sorrow. I got some cotton candy, and when I turned back, he jumped through a ride and again shocked me. I closed my face with the cotton candy, but too late to do it, "hiding, huh?", he approached me and again grabbed my hand ,"let's play! It's a dreamworld here!" . He dragged me to a boat ride and it was fun.

Suddenly I saw his friends came there, and.. looked at us. I can see one girl there looking not so happy on me. "How can you do that to me?", she shouted it at him. I did not know her, I bet she is not one of my high school friends.  We went down from the ride and talked. "You don't know how I feel as your girl?? Do you even consider me when you walk together with her?",she said that to him and marked another disappointment for me. This eyes can't hold the tears and so it dropped, I did not want them to see how I feel to him , neither this issue. I turned my back and walked, "sorry for you all. maybe I've distracted your vacations. I did not mean it. But please excuse me". I did not see others' expression. But I just knew that the tears kept on coming through my cheeks.

And I know, that maybe times square will be the only place I can hide, crowds can make me feel better. I sat down on the stairs and watched around all the pictures and videos. Hoping that he won't find it. Someone came! and it's not him?? It's Charissa, my friend.
"Do you love him?", she suddenly asked that question on me. I did nothing except raising my shoulder. "Do you trust him?", on this question I can't stand it and shouted, "how can I trust him? I don't know him well!!". He suddenly came, "how can I trust you? how can I trust my feeling too? A stranger just came and fly around in my heart every single second. How can you not trust me, when I'm now very sure that I am in love with you?". I was so shocked, "You are mad!". I decided to walked back and think How can he said that when he had a girlfriend already? This people is crazy. It was nearly the time of my flight anyway, so I packed my stuffs and headed to the airport.

I waited for my flight, and cried the whole time. A guy, running, it was him! So I closed my face, but ... can't. He again found me. "Don't cry, If you don't trust me, how can I trust myself?". I shouted it out,"You made my heartache. You took my love while you also take another person's, can you respect my feeling? You are mad! You are ..." *has no word to describe.
"So it's her? So you think I'm that kind of guy? Please don't put any concern on her! She's not my girlfriend whatsoever!"
That information made me raised my head, "what?", he explained to me, "even though you're a stranger for me, she is even more. She's just one of our friend that adores me ?? hmm.. I mean.. I have no one in my life now. And only you can fill it."
I smiled and "how can I trust you?", he answered, "I can find you everywhere you are, even in crowds, how can you not trust me, stranger?" .

It was the nicest day I have during the vacation, but unfortunately I have to go back to Denver.While he went back to Miami, where he live during his studies. Our date might stop there, but we still communicate and virtually date through lots of medias. Still he's my stranger, but that's the reason I trust him.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Flowing Water and the Shell - Love will find you.

            Summer time! It was a really nice day; I went out to the beach to see some pretty view. Warm out here, and the location of the beach which is quite near to my seaside house made it even more familiar with me. Aaw this is so pretty, that’s what in my mind. I laid down on the golden shiny sand and just closed my eyes when a girl came and introduced herself to me, “how’re you doin? Let’s play and walk around, dear. By the way.. my name is Peggy !” . Raising up my body and shaking her hand, I said, “sure! My name is Ellysa”. We played volleyball and hanging around, and while we chatted, “haha, so what are you doing around here, Peggy?”, “Just looking for a refreshing air and stuffs like looking for hot guys too! Hahha”, and I thought amazing.. she is so confident and she’s just honest! . We went around the beach and just chatted about many more.

            “Hey, Elyssa! Aren’t you thirsty? Do you want to grab some drinks for us?”,  she was a very nice girl and I can’t imagine how sweet she was by that time. “Sure! Thank you so much Peg!!”. So I was just looking around seating below the sun that has been comforting me for hours.. until I saw.. wait! “Hei girl! Are you by yourself??”, a nice looking guy asked me a question and I felt so shock and happy mixed together, “Well, technically… now.. ehm. Now yes I am”. It was me and Stephen, we talked for a while, “So how long have you lived by the seaside?”, I looked at the singing wave on the beach while answering all his curiosity upon me. “So.. tell me who’s this, Ellysa!”, the voice from the back it must be….. Peggy! Uh I forgot about her! . “Hi, who’s this cute little girl, Ellysa?” and another curious question from Stephen. “Ah! She’s my friend, Peggy.. This is my new friend ‘too’ , Stephen” .

Sun was about to set and three of us still chatted together until once I found out.. “Can you teach me how to be friend with water?”, Stephen had a phobia with water! And so I brought a shell, a big shell, and put it right front of flowing water, and said “You put it on flowing water, they won’t kill.. they’ll clean and refresh you.. Just like the sea and the ocean, as long as you do not pass the limit, you will be safe and happy too”. So I pulled his hand and pull him to the end of the water. At first he was nervous, and as I brought him further.. still he closed his eyes and one splash of water from the shell made him felt more… familiar. “This is amazing! Now I can play with them!”, he was so excited.. while I also realized that he was still holding my hand, and it’s so … indescribable, like warmth and a certain feeling came from my chest.

Peggy was there at the back seeing us playing together; her eyes seemed not to be happy at all. She looked mad at me. I decided to let off his hand and ran, “Peg, let me just went to the stall to grab some drinks!”. What happened to me? People that I’ve known today have became my lover.. and my .. rival? How can this possibly happen? I just don’t understand.. I feel so warm while holding his hand. “Aaaa please help me!!”, a little girl was crying and I tried to looked up where she was. “Help me!! AAAA!!!”, and.. okay! It sounds like she … oh no! She was hit by a car and she bleed! “Let me help you!”, I approached her and carried her on my back while looking for a flowing water to clean the wound. “Thanks, big sister.. Thank you for helping me”. “No worry, little sister. Can we be friends?”, I asked her. Brought her to the spot where I saw… Stephen and Peggy were holding hands and neglected me over here.

Dinner time, we spent time together once more, four of us. Enjoying lunch, Stephen told me that he wanted me to be his girlfriend, I was so excited. But not until… “And so does Peggy, she’s my girlfriend too. I want you both to be my girlfriend.. Official one. Do you agree, Ellysa?” he said that. It was like a magic, his words always melted me off, and so.. “yes. Yes, sure!”. Though I wasn’t sure about that, the fact that I became his ‘another’ girlfriend. But his words are like a command on my heart and he saying I love you , it was like the key to my soul. So I flew and dreamed.. dreamed about him , never realized what will happen into our relationships.

“Let’s go to Mystic Fair tomorrow, my girlfriends.! I’d like to have a date for us.”, Stephen sent ‘us’ a text. I still can’t believe why am I still happy to get this message from him, the moment when I splashed water on him still strongly affected my heart beat. I.. decided to wear this cute outfit!

            It’s the day! Hmm I think I look nice! Let’s go and I went out to catch a bus to the fair which is like 2 hours away from my place. As soon as I arrived I look around and tried to look for him, we haven’t meet for 2months! It’s a long time isn’t it? There he is! And.. Peggy was there with an extremely gorgeous and sexy look. “Hi, Ellysa! You look cute today!”, Stephen greeted me and smile was the only thing I could give, fake smile. Hurting my heart, He kept on holding Peggy’s hand while letting me walked behind him as if I was their servant. They matched together, how they dressed up elegantly and  how they walked. And ah! I just remember that they are both city kids that live luxurious way, while here? Me? Haha. Seaside girl who does not dress up much. But that’s fine. When we were there, I talked, should I give a note ‘a little’ to Stephen, and sadly talked nothing to Peggy, at all. It was dampening, this date looked as if we were competing, and I hated it. One time we were seeing a performance from the railing, and I said, “come here! See it’s an amazing performance”, and I smiled while looking through the mirror railing to the stage which was located on the level below our spot now. So Stephen let his hand off of Peggy and said, “yes! It’s nice”, accidentally (or should I say this is accidentally?? Hey! We’re boyfriend and girlfriend!) he stood up just right on my left. Felt unhappy, Peggy came in between us and realizing that I felt bad, thus I backed off and went to other side where I stood next to a group of guys. They were looking at me, perhaps “how silly I looked like?”, but anyway. I did not care about it. However…. I realized there was a guy who has been looking at me, and gave me a pitiful image. And when I tried to walk forward, NO! I lost them! My boyfriend and his other girlfriend!! Ah! This is not fun at all! So I walked down the aisles with emphasis ‘by myself’ on ‘my first date’ and looked around. Suddenly, that guy that gave me a pitiful look approached me and tried to entertain me. “Stop it! Who are you?”, I smiled for a while and talked to him while walking around the fair. “Hi, I’m Joseph, coming here specially to sweep of your sorrow, madame”, he bowed to me and I just smiled, widely. He was a fun guy, and so I enjoyed the time talking to him.

 But not until I saw…  my boyfriend who kissed his other girlfriend, there in the dark corner, witnessed by me, the other girlfriend of him. I could not stand that, so my heart pumped, suddenly all part of my body felt disfunction, and I ran. I ran so hard and I did not want to see that nasty view of them, and I do not love them, I started to realize how could I accept that folly game of him. How can I trust him when I don’t know that my own self worth nothing compared to Peggy? I kept on running and tried to went off that fair, and it was still 2hours away from home. How? How can I hide this disappointed expression, how can I get rid of these tears?

I tried to calm down, and finally I reached the door out. He was there. Who do you expect?? It was Joseph, “What’s wrong with you? It is not fair, madame.. You ran away from me who was trying to make you feel happy”. That words,… touched my feeling. I cried again and could not hold those tears even for a second. He asked me, “what’s wrong? Tell me”. He pulled me out and on the way out there was a promotional photo, he pulled my head up and *click* That must be the worst picture of mine, and guess what? He purchased it! Anyway, I was still on my bad mood and he stilled pulled me, “where are we going”, I asked him. Not an answer, but he carried me on his back and I kept on hitting him, “Don’t kidnap me!!! HELP!!! HELPP!!”. He did not care at all, but people came over him and punched him, let me got off of his back. I ran and tried to catch bus to get back home, and luckily I did. Ah, that was my first date, and worst date I guess, amongst all dates people has had. And, end of story.

*Ting tong* wait! It’s not the end of the story yet? I thought it was! It was late at night and someone went over to my house? Ah it must be that dirty boyfriend of mine whose relationship status was denied by me by that time. I opened the door. “Hei!”, a guy with a wicked smile carved on his face. I closed the door so bad, So? It’s not my irresponsible boyfriend? “Open the door Ellysa!!”, It was Joseph knocking in front of the door. “Please, I was not trying to kidnap you at all! Please.. I’ve been driving for hours to get here!”, I shocked. And how can he know my home? So I accepted the risk and opened the door. He was there smiling, and hugged me while saying, “Thanks for the trust”.

We walked down to the beach, the place I won’t ever consider good anymore. “How can you know my home? And my name?”, I asked him. “Little angle brought to you, and to me too. I just realized during the fair, that it was you, that is precious to me”. Blushed, my only response, “little angel? Who’s that? I never meet an angel before.. first of all. I never see you before too”. He laughed and replied me while grabbing my shoulder, “who said you’ve seen me? ‘first of all’ *he tried to emphasize those words. Do you remember your little sister??She’s mine too!” .

“So you dated her??”, innocently saying. Again he laughed, this time even more, “She is my angel, my little sister. Thanks, by the way for helping her while I was not there. And as a reciprocation, I helped you today, didn’t I?”. I pushed him in silence and said, “Thank you so much for today, you made my day”. He interrupted, “How about for the punches you made on me?”. I felt so guilty and just pretended to be innocent, “well, whose fault was that for taking me with you without my permission??, well anyway thank you so much, Joseph.. for everything”. The end of story, again.. Joseph walked away from the beach and I saw his back, felt like wings were there, he is the angel! I ran, and tried to grab the wings, but he turned back and fell down for being shocked.

“You need me, don’t you?”, he smiled and offered his hand to lift me up. I smiled and , “yes, I do.. Please bring me to the flowing water.. because you’re my shell” . No one witnessed it, only the shells and the flowing water. And the rest.. I won’t tell you! It’s private. But end of story… He’s really my angel and no one can steal his wings, cause he only belongs to me.

Originally made by: Catherine and her dream